A Dark Awakening (Poem)

My former self and IWept as we said goodbyeHer magnetism began to fadeAlong with old habits she had madeAnd when I stepped out of her broken shellThe anguish was deeper than Dante’s hellA darkness consumed each synapse of thoughtThe tears of clarity had begun to wroughtI see more clearly where deception had defeated meI see…

The Meeting w Doctors from Johns Hopkins

The most profound information that I recall were the videos of the mice that were given the TRPV4 genetic mutation. Their paws were useless and they walked on their forearms oddly. Many didn’t live past 10 days old because they didn’t have the strength to breathe. After being given the treatment, there was footage of…

Discovering my own Complex with Promises

I have been learning how to not rely on the meaning of words. Every human deciphers and perceives differently, therefore being sure of what another truly means or how they interpret you on a deeper level is nearly impossible to know. What I’ve found to be best is following feelings. Not emotions, but feelings. They…

A Period of Deep Healing

My Little Love, I’m rapidly moving through a reflective period. As you grow older, a realization begins to surface. There’s so many different ways of thinking and perceiving. The possibilities of how your thoughts align are infinite. You have enough knowledge to know that there are billions of stars out there, but to know each…

I dedicate this chapter to you.

Dear Sitarra, I’m working out the kinks in my life right now. All the places in my life that need attention. Sometimes, we want to turn away from looking at something, because it brings great sadness. But the sooner you give it your focus, the sooner it’s gravity within your psyche dissipates. I’ve been sad…

Pandemic Halloween 2020

Dear Mana-Moona, Despite the pandemic, we trick-or-treated. Maybe one-third of the people wore masks (haha, I mean the medical kind). You wanted to go home after two blocks but the rest of us kept going. I trick-or-treated for you wearing my Jack Skellington onesie. LOL It was so much fun with Taonna, Bubba, Phoebe, Uncle…

Don’t believe Everything Doctors tell You

No one can tell you what you can or can’t do. No one can tell you what lies in store for you in the future. You can’t always believe doctors because they have to say that which will ensure they don’t get sued. They don’t want to create “false hope”. And they don’t know you…

Thank you for Sharing your Life with Me

Perhaps we choose our lives before we’re born. Perhaps we don’t. Whatever the case, we can indeed choose who we share our living moments with once we’ve embodied independence. Share your time with those that bring you smiles, higher vibes, and talk about ideas rather than people. Trust in the people that affirm your goals….

The Great Beauty of the Unknown

Today I started the day with meditation in the craft room – just for the sake of a new environment. What I discovered about my mission was this: I know you’ll understand, Sitarra. Your mind is flowing with ideas and you comprehend incredibly well. I will raise you to love humanity, this planet, and your…

We are Gifts from the Universe to Each Other

November 26, 2015 My Dear Gift, Today is Thanksgiving. I am most thankful for you. Before finding out I was pregnant, I thought for a few fleeting moments every so often, that I, or your father, were unable to have children. You are a valuable gift. You are an enlightenment. I’m at seven months and…